TURN MY GAZE

     There are times in my life that I can not express myself accept in song. I can not grieve a loss accept to state it plainly and worship God in it. My favorite songs are usually born from a place to desperation and no other way to express my heart. Not getting the fire job, this time, this job was a bigger deal than just a job. We don't know that we can continue with this dream as Paul can not physically do the 50 hours a week at Mazak and volunteer. We didn't view this job as our salvation and were careful not to allow it to become an idol. We know God has a plan but we were all in and He said No. We will press on. We will seek to obey what ever God has next for us. We are praying for wisdom.

What do I do with disappointment so deep it paralyzes my every emotion
What do I do when I am confident You will say "yes" and You don't
What do I do when I know You are ordering and allowing it to crumble

Yes or No
I will turn my gaze from Your HAND and simple to Your FACE
I will long for nothing more beyond your calming, warm embrace
Its easier to ask for things than to ask for You
Sometimes a yes can substitute my desperate need for You

Disappointment cracks my heart
You bind me with Yourself
Hope is not for later or fix the broken heart
Hope is who You are and you died to give Yourself

I yearn to ask all about the why the when's the how's
I will stop instead to live in You
I lay me down

If I believe You are the maker of good and glory
then You are to be trusted when You place a No in my story
Jesus I believe You are the maker of good and glory
I will trust you now with this No in our story

Yes or No

I will turn my gaze from Your HAND and simple to Your FACE

I will long for nothing more beyond your calming, warm embrace

Its easier to ask for things than to ask for You

Sometimes a yes can substitute my desperate need for You